Asleep as Lard

It's fun to edit the layout of my blog. It's like repainting and redecorating my room. The color idea came from the flower in the blog header I took while in NZ. It was actually the first flower of the plants my sister plucked from the garden of the campsite where she works. I planted the plants in my sister's own garden and watched the flower from tiny bud to full bloom then I took the pic. You will see the date when it was taken at right corner of the pic altho I'm not really happy with those scandalously big numbers in there.

This Sunday morning I woke up at seven to prepare myself for church. I tried in vain to wake my daughter up as we have planned the last night to go to church together. She sleeps like lard as the saying goes. I have taken a bath, have worn a nice Sunday dress, made up my face, sprayed myself twice with perfume and still the daughter was as asleep as lard. I opened my computer to check mails and then I went to blogger, then to flickr, then to composing a post and the plan to go to church was finally called off as the daughter was still as asleep as lard.

Well, the real purpose why I'm posting today is because I want to share my insights into this quote from The Shack book by William P. Young - "God has no expectations, just expectancy." It was delightful to finally realize that God because he is God and is complete in Himself does not expect anything from me actually. All he has for me is expectancy. He joyfully expects the best to happen to me. He waits patiently, with expectancy until I learn to trust fully in his love and goodness. I am the center of his affection and I am loved by him with a love incomparable. While reflecting on this, it gradually dawned on me - what reason is there to be sad, what reason is there to be afraid, what reason is there to feel hurt when someone so loving ang so good holds me close to his heart. It's simply awesome!